Rosalita's Musings!

  I sat there, unable to move or breathe properly. My heart pounded against my ribcage as I tried to comprehend what I had just seen. Was that some monster staring at me in broadlight? Deep down, I was crying my heart out,as a lump formed in my throat. I couldn’t let out the screams and cries of agony. I immediately thought of my mum but then shifted to my focus on Jesus as she had always taught me, ‘Our  help comes from the Lord. ’   There I was again like a little girl, helpless, wishing on a miracle from someone I didn’t exactly know but knew Him better after attending my Catholic Church schooling. I had to cry to a saint to pray for me to the Angels who’ll then ask Angel Michael to fight my battles after receiving God’s grace. This gave me a little bit of courage to rise up on my feet slowly to have a final glimpse of the beast before knowing my fate.   The wall became my support as my knees were quite feeble. I slowly pushed the curtain aside and I saw her. Ther...

Photo by  Benjamin Wedemeyer  on  Unsplash Today I feel like talking about loneliness. You probably heard a lot of people say that loneliness is bad and how no man is an island. However, I have a different view for it, how will you work on yourself or decide the next step in life without having some alone time? So, get up take that leap and discover something new! I’m not encouraging people to leave their wives or husbands or kids,,, hang in there just take a solo vacation and hang in there.   See how I encouraged people not to leave their families? Some people were done with their official duty of studying and were immediately encouraged to get married, they looked for their attractive attributes and just settled. I really hope Gen Z parents won’t force their kids to just settle, I know it's scary because one might think of their kids not being able to handle their sexual desires and sire a lot of bastards or get some chronic illnesses. You have to trust that your h...

we can choose to start living, start celebrating😀😀😃   Introduction. Ever had an experience that left you with a life altering impression cause it seemed like it was meant to for? I call it ‘fate’, it was your fate to stumble upon it because you needed it to navigate through life. I’m not a huge fan of destiny and fate stories but some things tend to move my thinking to a maybe. Personal experience. I recently read a book that made me realize that I have been riding my whole life out instead of taking breaks to take pictures, enjoy the scenery and the weather. I rarely read out of syllabus texts but I got this desire to improve my life and sought out some new books. It has been a life altering experience because I discovered some few fun facts about me and the human brain. I noticed that almost all missed opportunities in my life were deeply connected to some fear I had against something. I have had fear of change for a really long time and this hindered most of my next step of e...

  Hey I have been dealing with a mental block for a really long time. However, it turns out I just could not handle the details of my latest issue.   Life sucks right? If yes I know you’ve heard a couple of ‘it gets better with time.’I have a different approach to this though; it does not apply to the mass feelings around your heart. I saw a certain tweet in X “You know healing involves you knowing it still hurts a little bit.”   Just because it hurts a little bit doesn’t mean you are on a reverse gear on your healing process. That person or douche bag did you dirty and you have every right to be low-key mad and still move on with your life. I guess that’s why people say I forgive you but I wont ever forget what you did. In fact it puts you on a lucky spot of avoiding the same mistake.   You still think about your dead loved one and you cry, you have no need to panic. You miss them, they were your everything and part of your routine. You have every reason to still cr...

  Start over, do it again but in a different light with a new attitude. Heard that, right? I’m the expert in always finding myself in new terrains every now and then. I wake up and smile then boom, change is in my living room.   The series of events that hit you after change is what most people avoid talking about. Everyone talks about how they really had their fun days overdid it and ended up in therapy and now alas they are all anew. No one takes time to talk about how their first day in therapy or rehab really felt like.   I'll be direct and to the point, the first day in change feels like hell. You might have reformed and joined the religious crew, but your body still senses the change and loathes it. Just like with withdrawals and hangovers your body is struggling inwards and there are several indicators which show it all.   Do not prepare to have a proper first day or week or month but talk to your mind; tell it how much the end result will feel like home. Imme...

  You know, I’ve watched All American from the first season and while I was watching season 5, part of season 5(I am not done yet). It has really helped me to figure out a lot of things about grief. I will especially focus on distance;  most people need people to love them openly after losing a loved one but there is a group which needs the love,  but they just find themselves blocking it out. Spencer really needed someone to reassure him that loving people and letting people love you would not result in loss but also gifts.   It made me think about the pages in my journal and true to that I needed the same remainder. I have been off social media for the longest, trying to blame it on my; phone, not paying for Wi-Fi , not having enough time. It dawned on me, yet it was on a random Monday night that reaching out to people creates bonds and personal relationships which mean a lot with time. I discovered I've  had a lot of goodbyes in a short period, goodbyes to pe...