GOTTA KEEP ON FIGHTING,,, VICTORY IS PURE BLISS.

fight a little longer!

 

Psst psst hello! I hope you good today. Just from handling one of the most formidable week! Can't say it's the worst of the worst, I've had some that taught me rock bottom ain't really rock bottom. Ha!

 

Today I just want to have a lil chit chat. My big project is still underway, or I'm just scared of its research. Oops I forgot, have you doing okay lately? I hope so. I really really loved the insights, encouragements y'all gave me on my last blog. Thinking I was about to leave it all behind all because of some worldly worries!

 

I want to talk about a demon that has really put on me edge for some time now, BEING PASSIVE SUICIDAL. I didn't want to write about this but it's time I put it to shame and learn how to contain it. I've come across most videos where people demonstrate how they felt like when something happened to them. They could either have tissue round their necks or drinking from an already bottled detergent. I always laugh when I see them but sometimes reflect on it, do they actually feel like that?

 

It is a shitty feeling always waking up and having all compliments, awards, milestones flushed out of your mind and drowning into your sorrows, pity, losses and failures. I'm a great advocate of mental health. It's one thing that hasn't been in my blessings list. Yeah, I used to think maybe, just maybe it's because I lacked money, love or attention. However, there were so many days that I knew I was loaded but kept on staring at my wrists. You just have that bad thing looking deeply into your soul demanding for your life wondering if it knew how after life actually looks like!

 

I used to think that ah! Kenyans just love throwing parties, doing drugs till I knew the burdens the young souls were carrying. It's just their way of escaping the exit route, living freely and waiting on the Lord to call them. Seems like some movies or novels thing till you do your own research. I don't have all the answers tonight, but I know a few things.

Knowing you're not alone.

Knowing that sometimes it's good to take a break and reconnect with Mother Nature.

Knowing that each day you wake up there's a medal handed over to you for holding on.

Knowing just enough is better than perfection

Knowing there's an angel, your guardian angel(s) celebrating each time you conquer.

 

This is what might make you want to hold on. F**k bad nature, treacherous people, anything that's stressing you that won't even be important in 10 years. This is a really good armour for you. Some people say pray it out; not knowing the demon ceases your communication first. Be easy on yourself. No one knows tomorrow even Jesus on earth said only the Father knows the hour, the time.

 

You are still breathing, grab onto it. Make it your goal to either teach people or let your whole life be a lesson to them. Sadly, the latter means you'll probably be forgotten in a month's time.

 

I love you all, I started as me but ended up addressing someone or people. It's really what my soul needed to hear a few years back. Ciao! I'll see you soon! ❤

 

 

 ALWAYS TRY AND REACH OUT TO SOMEONE OR PEOPLE YOU TRUST. YOU'D BE SURPRISED BY JUST HOW MUCH VALUE YOU BRING TO THE TABLE AND HOW YOU IMPACT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU!

 

I just love Christmas, take it as my way of spreading the Christmas cheer!!💖😃